There are times I realise things within myself and I feel so disappointed in myself, not the kind of low self-esteem things I used to think, but important things to me

Like when did I stop feeling proud of my accomplishments? I do things these days and I never congratulate myself on anything anymore. Big things, small things, it doesn’t matter, what matters is I did something to the best of my ability. When did that stop making me feel good? You know what I did the other day at work? I did one of the biggest goods received invoices our workplace has ever done. It took me over an hour to do it- back when I first started doing invoices it took me that long just to do ten items. I’ve improved, and something like that should have made me say, “fuck yeah I’m proud of myself” because growing is important and I AM STILL GROWING. I never stopped growing, I just stop caring that I was actually doing it, and became too focused on how much of it I was doing.

No, no, that’s wrong. Never focus on how much growing you do, you are a beautiful plant and you grow, at your own rate. If you try force yourself to grow faster, you can damage the important little things and could stunt how much you grow in the long term. You can’t force yourself to learn faster. Think about it. Study as hard as you will, teach teach teach, but your mind will always absorb only what it can. Learn at your own pace and be proud of what you learn.

Love yourself, love what you do, all of it.

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How to feel better about yourself:

1. Sleep without underwear every once and a while, it’s good for you. Maybe even try sleeping naked.

2. Take long baths with tea, ice cream, or whatever you please. Throw in bubbles if that’s your style.

3. Look at yourself like you look at your best friend. Find the freckles you love, what your eyes look best with, what hairstyle compliments your smile.

4. When you look at your naked body in the mirror, only think good things. Say compliments to yourself aloud. Watch yourself smile, and encourage yourself.

5. Take yourself out on a date. Treat yourself to the things you love. You’re alone yes, but there is nothing wrong with that. Remember all the times you were smothered by people and talking crowds, and you only wanted to be alone with yourself.

6. Write yourself a love note. Tell yourself your favorite things about you, and tell yourself all the things you want to become. Tell yourself you’ll love you forever.

7. Take pictures of yourself. Selfies are magnificent! Take 500! Take them everywhere! Find the good lighting! Pick your favorite one and realize what a wonderful work of art you are.

8. Acknowledge your accomplishments, all of them. Got out of bed? It’s hard sometimes and it’s been hard before, so honestly great job. Drink lots of water, and at the end of the day congratulate yourself for staying hydrated. Let yourself know when you are proud, and soak up the feeling of “well done”.