There are times I realise things within myself and I feel so disappointed in myself, not the kind of low self-esteem things I used to think, but important things to me
Like when did I stop feeling proud of my accomplishments? I do things these days and I never congratulate myself on anything anymore. Big things, small things, it doesn’t matter, what matters is I did something to the best of my ability. When did that stop making me feel good? You know what I did the other day at work? I did one of the biggest goods received invoices our workplace has ever done. It took me over an hour to do it- back when I first started doing invoices it took me that long just to do ten items. I’ve improved, and something like that should have made me say, “fuck yeah I’m proud of myself” because growing is important and I AM STILL GROWING. I never stopped growing, I just stop caring that I was actually doing it, and became too focused on how much of it I was doing.
No, no, that’s wrong. Never focus on how much growing you do, you are a beautiful plant and you grow, at your own rate. If you try force yourself to grow faster, you can damage the important little things and could stunt how much you grow in the long term. You can’t force yourself to learn faster. Think about it. Study as hard as you will, teach teach teach, but your mind will always absorb only what it can. Learn at your own pace and be proud of what you learn.
Love yourself, love what you do, all of it.